Time is of The Essence

Putting the double A batteries into the back of the kitchen clock began the ticking. The ticking began heightened my awareness of time. 

It has struck me how fast time seems to move, not just when I’m having fun. Time has been slipping by incrementally when I need it most: nights. 

Wait 10 minutes for Bart. Walk 8 minutes home. Wash up in 6 minutes. Begin Studying. 

And here is where I left off 2 years ago. This has been sitting along with the 13 other drafts that may or may not ever get published. I was about to start a new draft, a new blog post and decided to start on one I hadn’t finished, yet. It seemed easier, also less nerve-wracking than pushing content that was utterly new onto my blog that is now so utterly old.

I had been nervous to share my thoughts. This coupled with the fact that I am more pressed for time than ever. I thought that while studying, I had little time. Now, while working, there seems to be even less of it. Where does the time go? As in, where did it all go. Less of the nostalgic cry, more of the literal asking.

It has been nigh 5 months that I have been working now. Immediately starting after graduation, little time out in the world. From one institution to the next. As if I couldn’t get enough of them, couldn’t find the strength to stand up in the gusts of wind that populate the betweens of buildings in San Francisco. So strong that sometimes one cannot even walk down these corridors. And how like a busy street each side seems to rush, and rush by. Picking up Time and speeding off, as if Time wasn’t the one moving but these institutions. Less moving, more eating. Eating, squandering, wasting?

I sometimes wonder if the decisions I have made reflect my awareness of the situation or if they reflect a disregard or ignorance. The funny thing is, is that I seem to get caught up in the same things I question. I know that I can hold two opposing ideas in my head at once, but this has always been a strength. Now I question this ability.

A Reflection on 5 Months’ Time – I question my growth. As this is foremost the most important thing to me in whatever I do, wherever I am, however I do it, it is my mission to better myself. I have said this before, mostly on occasion when people ask why my phone is in military time. I like to challenge myself in even the smallest of ways. I would rather think more than simply glean information from a mobile device. So I change the language to another and the time to one I don’t already read normally. Not to say that I do not now, as that would be odd. I have had it in military time for ages now, and Italian even longer still. I learn through challenges. No matter how small. No matter how big. Looking for a new next challenge.

Time is of the essence.